They are all grown up now- or some reasonable facsimile at 22 and 24 years old. Yet, there is a feeling I get wherever I am in the house and both of them are home. It never fails. This morning I paused on the stairs as it enveloped me like a warm blanket. The house feels different. The house feels complete, or maybe I do? I started being aware of the feeling when my oldest left for college and it's stuck with me since.There is a sense of security when they are sleeping, and I am doing my morning tasks. And whether it is loading the dishwasher, or even making coffee- I am content. I know they are safe. Initially, I wanted to keep that feeling tight in my hand but I know that I cannot.
And then the day rears its' ugly head and we are off into the thick of it. And the moment is gone, as quickly as it came.
Oh, boy do I feel this! Mine are all still here, but with one at 18 and two other teens, the future looms large. I fully embrace the security of mornings when all is quite and the people I love are resting. Thank you for this lovely Slice.
ReplyDeleteYes, the house is complete when they stop by to visit. My 21 year old pops in once or twice a week. He has his own apartment, so I rarely wake up knowing he'll be coming down the stairs, but I sure do feel complete, as you posit. These moments are so fleeting.
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