Coping with loss is never easy. Even though I know it is part of life, I accept it, it's still so gray and bleak. This month after my aunt is battled Covid, she was left with a residual lung disease. Yesterday, my cousins told me she would not leave the hospital.
In October after an afternoon visit my mother's best friend, and mine, she passed away the very next day. In November while visiting in North Carolina, I lost my aunt the day before a preplanned visit. Since I was visiting I was able to both attend the service, and support my cousins.
These are all pivotal women in my life who have shaped, and supported me. I cannot even describe their varied gifts to me. I'm trying to roll with the tide. I'm trying to be an adult. At the same time, it's strange to think of a world without these women guiding me? For as long as I can remember they have been there, through almost every rite of passage.
I feel selfish even typing this, but at the same time it feels freeing.
I am sorry for your losses. It is never easy and so often comes unexpectedly. Knowing that these women shaped you means that they will always be a part of you.
ReplyDeleteThank-you. Great point. I will hold onto that.
DeleteLoss is always hard not matter when it come or how. Give yourself time to remember them and the gifts they gave to you. Time will help you move to the fun and loving moments you have spent with them. Writing about them might help you understand this loss.
ReplyDeleteIt doesn't sound selfish… it sounds real. Loss is difficult and grief takes time. Give yourself grace. Hope your memories of these special people will give you comfort.
ReplyDeleteDiane Anderson (newtreemom)