A few days ago I learned my youngest had decided against college for
now (despite getting into over a dozen schools- and his top choice) and
opted for a community college and part time work at a deli. He really
doesn't know what he wants to do. He admits even community college is a
poor second choice but admitted he knew that, "You and Dad would not
let me do nothing!"
How right he is.
And with our
second child always came a whole new menu of doubts. Questions would
shoot off my brain much like a pinball machine. How hard should I push?
Should I push at all? Should I let him? Should I stop him?
Six months ago he was diagnosed with clinical depression. We learned
that his typical teenage lethargy (sleeping, not committed, unmotivated,
not enthused) now had even deeper roots. I felt like even more of
failure. How could I have missed this? How could I have failed him?
As I pour over resources that help me learn more about depression, and
mental health as we learn tools together that hopefully will help him
cope with life, and his depression I feel a little hopeful. I know it is
is delicate balance to maintain. It is delicate balance for both he and
I. This is all we can ever hope for; and that's okay.
I'm glad you've finally found the roots of the problem. And maybe community college is a good launching point for him instead of heading off to something that might become more overwhelming.
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